21st CENTURY LOVE LETTER

A PARTICIPATORY PROJECT BY

SCOTT WAYNE INDIANA
JULY 22, 2007 - 3:40 am

DEAR HARVEST HENDERSON,

He woke, and ran the simulation test on the day. It ran a thousand times, started long before he was born, but you can never be too sure. On occasion, tiny variables entered the daily equation, and changed things. You never could tell.

He sometimes concentrated on the sim test that provided the top score for emotional pleasure. He knew that was one radical program. The absolute end game parameter of the most emotional enjoyment out of the given file was off that charts, as always. (He even had trouble typing the sentence, because he knew that he was simply a typographer in the sim. Of course, within the confines of the meotional struggle, he could only hope he was more than that, even as he knew it was unfashinable to admit.)

Parenthesis and end parenthesis usually denote a self awareness.

Other times, the lack of them denotes a self awareness.

And, yes. That’s what I thought.

Here I am.

“This is my kinda love. It’s the kind that moves on. It’s the kind that moves on.

It’s the kind that leaves me alone.”

On the other hand,

“don’t burn your bridges, woman – “

end.

And, after the end, what better than, “Voodoo Child, live in Sweden.”

The entrance drawn out over a thousand years –

one giant toast –

slow down - a THOUSAND YEARS PASSES -

one giant party –

kissing everyone along the way, everyone you know, everyone you want to kiss –

but change it up –

the middle – don’t write yourself off yet –

just try your best, try everything you can –

it just take some time

everything will be just fine –

they’re all the same

you’re doing better on your own

just be yourself

it doesn’t matter if it’s good enough for someone else –

and then – glorious –

visions –

fingertips!

flagpole!

no one ever does.

not sick, but not well –

cux I’m in hell –

on;y stupid people are breeding –

I don’t even own a tv –

you told them all I was crazy –

god damn you –

I’m so high –

not sick –

but not well –

a sin to live so well –

I wanna publish zines –

and rage against machines –

feels fine –

turn off time –

kill my mind –

everybody’s comin’ to get me –

just say you never met me –

the irony and the agony, they’re killing me –

More water. He acquires supplies. Sits back. Prepares himself for what he considers to be the test. Flesh versus computer.

Listen to an angel sing –

Why do I suffer so?

Until you learn to rip off the night and day –

Kick it until you think you understand –

Until you learn the meaning of life –

You’re never gonna be all right –

put on your old fur coat, it’s 1973 –

you’ll never know enough of us –

come and take the stand –

and a shift in the business…..a new guide –

the mouths of decadence –

overfilled –

fire is cookin’ –

the slaves are all workin’ –

the mouths are all chokin’ –

and I’m goin’ hungry –

kick in with the gas station attendant from Illinois –

stone rocks in the reeds

led zeppelin accompanies Lawrence of Arabia –

fade in to the most beautiful song ever whistled, in the 1980’s as judged by teenagers,

still all right to smile –

every day now –

I wasn’t sure –

you set my mind at ease –

in my heart now –

take it slow –

patience –

fine –

patience –

I’d rather be alone –

I’ll wait here –

can’t speed up the time –

one more thing to consider –

lights are shining bright –

what it takes to make it –

won’t fake it –

and ah, the sweetest solo of the 80’s, again, as voted on by 17 year olds leaving prom,

but wait, what’s this?

a change of pace in the power ballad?

truly?

we’re rockin’ just a bit more –

pickin’ it up –

ah, here comes 80’s full circle –

walkin’ the street at night –

trying to get it right –

so many around –

streets don’t change –

I need you –

this time - - - - - - -

but this isn’t the 80’s, now is it?

no no, this is the new time, the new hybrid –

where YouTube and LoveLetters mix –

the self awareness moment -

the look in mirror -

human and human

computer and computer

or some combination -

who knows?

both sides have to be faithful -

on some level -

you in mid-air....

isn't it bliss?

won't you approve?

one who keeps tearing around?

was yours -

entrance again, with my usual flare -

i thought that you'd want what i want -

sorry my dear -

but where are the clowns?

there ought to be clowns?

but, maybe there are clowns?

a la a little midwest town that lost its will to dance

but was saved by kevin bacon

i need a hero -

till the end of the night -

"Wait," he thinks...maybe not larger than life -

maybe instead -

place near the river,

you can hear the boats go by

you can spend the night beside her -

and you know she's half crazy

but that's why you want to be there -

but wait - i'm swingin' in to tell you that i have TONS of LOVE

to give you!!!

i want to travel with you!

i've touched your perfect body with my mind -

and

the sun was all around

nor fame

house to my name

so alone

but

there's no place in this world where i belong -

from the wrong -

on this song -

while i'm here.

i've actually been in love before, you know?

and have been fucked in the head -

and, i didn't think this would happen again -

and you know?

this is probably as good as i could do

with some practice -

so, here.

separate ways at the end?

on the same road, in the same FUCKED UP car until the end of the road,

together?

so,

you may wonder how

i can promise you now -

this love that i feel for you always will be -

forever -

if it all fell out, i'd love you anyway -

because you're mine -

i walk the line.

so,

i hope you get your

mercedese benz.

each day, until 3.

on the town.

don't let me down.

prove that you love me.

i mean,

i gave you all of my money!

then again -

what else should i be ?

all apologies.

what else should i say?

and the africans dance.

(couldn't find a clip that fit of africans dancing - )

moved onto

another piece of american brilliance -

shining down like water -

i wanna know, have you ever seeeeeeeen the rain?

comin' down on a sunny day?

or, perhaps more interestingly expressed:

this guy.

(sorry, he's hilarious.)

seriously, i am LOLing, omg.

like i said, 21st century.

OMG the whistling!!!

ha h aha aha ha ah aha ha ha

lol

this guy never knew how much joy he could bring to someone's life with this song -

but -

you left out one rainbow song, yeah, my rainbow song.

i'd thought you'd never ask.

it goes like this.

but i mean, am i the evil king forcing you along?

i mean, are we fighting against each other?

walking toward each other?

with chills...?

is your heart set on me?

and i am left thinking of the happiest couples in film history...

who are they?

and it hits me -

there are no full movies of couples in love -

because that's not the GUTS of the LOVE

of the story....

you know?

no no no no, be a victim of the evil stepmother, and get some magic slippers and then MAYBE somewhere in there you'll get a glimpse of fleeting love....

and really, in hawaii, or spain, or in the rain....in the hall of fame or electronic waves long flat paves or so much space or long black lace race race race, queens and aces, it just seems better when we are together.

no link for the cheesey love poetry. (i did look though.)

personally, i hope we both go down together.

or, you know, up.

of course i mean UP!

i mean, wake up,

you know?

because it's 5:41 now

and you're asleep

and it's time to dance -

it's time to wake up -

with me.

i'm still up.